I took this yesterday, on my way back from my morning at the new J.O.B. This is a government contracted J.O.B., and the contract hasn’t yet been “officially” approved, so I haven’t “officially” started, but I went in to do orientation and help out a little in the office. I’m going to like it, I think, for as long as it lasts…
I’m worried, though. I didn’t go in this morning, although I had planned to, because I still have clean-up left to do with the very, very, final, last, finish-it-off finally course for school, and I’ve been putting it off. And I sat here all day, surfing, and didn’t even log-in to the assignments.
I haven’t worked on the very, very, final, last, finish-it-off finally “Ruby” story installment, either. It’s almost finished, but I just can’t seem to bring myself to get to it.
I’m also supposed to be re-vamping my resume (this J.O.B. is temporary – I am to continue looking for permanent employment in my “field”, such as it is). I haven’t even opened the file.
This is not helping me get to the next part of the best part – the shiny new life I’ve got planned for myself. I can’t quite seem to kick-start myself over the last few vestiges of the broken bits of the old one. As usual, I am my own worst enemy.
I kind of feel a little like I imagine the berry bush in this picture must feel; as if I’m almost through to someplace bigger and brighter, but my roots keep me stuck on the other side of the fence.
Not-So-Random Song for the Day: “We’ve Gotta Get Out of This Place” – The Animals